Christine Canons?

So if you had a Porn Star name what would it be?

Christine Canons.

I awoke at 5 am today having slept all night ! Gus did not wake me once and he was next to me all night long!!!! I couldn't believe it! I am not sure if the baby woke me (he was farting a storm - and struggling to get them out) or if the pressure valves of my breasts were bursting. They were rock hard and super uncomfortable. Gustave was too asleep and it would be too frustrating for him to try to siphon some milk off so I went and pumped... 6 ounces came out!!! In like 10 minutes!!! And he still had left overs! The body is an incredible machine!!!!

So that was my morning - well that and the first time since the doctor cleared me of my 6 week check up. I got an IUD installed yesterday. For those reading that don't know what that is (some of our men) it's a little copper (in my case) bar that is put in the cervix and that will be birth control - it will prevent eggs from becoming babies in my body. So that stung a little yesterday in the doctor's office, but well, we will see. To say the least this morning I found out that my body is not totally ready for the spelunking.

I am ready to go back to work though. The doctor said something that rang clearly in my mind yesterday. He said are you taking any time to yourself - are you enjoying time for you. And I answered with the fact that breastfeeding allows me to slow down and enjoy just the baby and the whole experience. He shook his head and rephrased the question. Is your husband taking the baby off your hands and allowing you to get out and go to the mall or just do stuff for yourself, I looked at him rather perplexed, and quietly answered, "no, not really". Hmm... yes I have to ask for more time from Neil but we also have a house to work on, it's a balance we have to achieve. But I was due back to work today and well, guess what, Neil was too far behind with work so I had to stay with the little one, not that I mind but I was looking forward to a few minutes doing something I love. sigh. Thankfully my mother flies in today and my brother will be in town too. I am looking forward to the extra hands and support. I feel like my errands are piling up! The Bank, pick up thread to finish the curtains, post office to mail and ebay sale, make a few returns at a few different stores, drop off paperwork at work for my baby leave, extend my leave, work on some "take home work projects" that I was trying to accomplish. Ugh.. it just seems there is a million little things but Gustave tethers me to a two hour limit on things or well causes me to have to breastfeed on the road, which is ok, but uncomfortable sometimes.

Ok that's my vent today - If I only had anohter set of hands like Shiva does I would be blessed to be able to accomplish more! Well if Gustave didn't want to be held all the time either! He just loves being held or in his vibrating bouncy.

((Sigh))... Oh how I love this little man but what great changes he brings to life!